The girl was born in 1923 in an East Texas town mere minutes away from the town in which she would die many years later--but still too soon. Her father was artistic and made his living as a sign painter. I found his World War I draft registration online, and I imagine that it was the war that took him to Europe, where he met and married the girl's mother, born in Wales.
I've learned from an old city directory that in 1929 the girl's family, along with her father's mother, lived together in the Texas town where she was born. The girl had an older brother, and that year, 1929, a third child was born and died on the same day. Months later, at the time of the 1930 census, the family lived in a different house--minus the girl's father. I've never been able to find out where he was or why he was absent at the time. The girl's mother had bravely returned to work after the loss of her baby, working as a saleslady at a variety store, but by the time Thanksgiving of 1930 rolled around, she had died, too. She was only 31 years old.
Another city directory shows that the girl's father and his mother lived together again in 1931. I assume the children lived with them. Then, in April of 1932, the grandmother died. How much loss can one child bear? The girl would have been almost eight at the time, her brother only eleven. Ever since I discovered those documents I've wondered what happened to the children. Oh, I know they survived, because the girl grew up and married my uncle, and I know from published records that her brother survived to the age of 73. But what about those interim years? Was their father able to care for them? I've learned that he lived long after his children were old enough to be on their own, so maybe he did. At the time of his death in 1949, he was unmarried, residing in Louisiana, and still painting signs.
By the time I met my uncle's wife, the little girl grown up, in the late 1940s, I knew she had joined the military in World War II, as had my uncle. That's how they met. In the early 1950s they and their three little boys lived just three doors down the street from us in Missouri. I probably saw my aunt every day in those years, but it never occurred to me that her life had been anything other than an ordinary one. The only tragic thing I ever knew about her childhood was that she had been attacked by a dog when she was very young. It was a German Shepherd, she told me when I asked out of childish curiosity how she got the scar that began over one eye, crossed at an angle over the bridge of her nose, and continued across the opposite cheek. I never thought to ask another question, and if she ever told any old stories, I never heard them.
We still lived in Missouri when my aunt and uncle and their boys moved away. They moved first to California (I think), where her brother was living, and then to the East Texas town where she had grown up. It was on a vacation to visit them there a few years later that my mother met my soon-to-be stepfather and changed the geographical course of my own life.
Time passed, and on a late-spring day in the mid-1960s, when I was a young mother with two babies of my own, one of my nearly-grown cousins called me. "I just wanted to tell you we have a new brother," he said, going on to explain that a young man and his wife had visited my aunt on the Mother's Day celebrated days earlier. That young man, in his 20s then, was my aunt's eldest son. My cousin said that his mother had gotten pregnant in her teens, that my uncle had known about it since before they married, and that their whole family was thrilled to welcome the young man into their midst. He also said--I remember this clearly: "She says they forced her to give up her baby for adoption." That part of this story did not have a happy ending. My aunt's firstborn son, lost to her for so many years, died of an illness about a year after they reunited.
My first marriage ended not long after that, and later, during my second marriage, my husband's work kept our family moving around the country. During those traveling years I rarely saw my family in Texas, and I never saw my aunt again. She died at the age of 48 from a brain tumor, I believe it was. The nature of her illness didn't stick in my mind as soundly as the fact that it had gone largely untreated. A few years earlier my aunt and uncle had become involved in a religious movement in which the seeking of medical treatment was forbidden. My uncle would follow her down a similar path six years later.
And so we leave the story of the grown-up aunt, knowing what ultimately happened to her, and we return to the story about the girl. I found that girl this past week in the 1940 census. That year she was 16 years old and living in a convent in Houston, Texas, with eight nuns and 103 other girls and women listed in the census as "charges." Through further research I've learned that the nuns who ran the convent were from an order known for its work with "wayward girls and fallen women." Given the circumstances of my aunt's early life, I find it difficult to think of her as wayward. Or fallen. Broken maybe. Lonely, for sure.
I will probably never know, nor is it any of my business, the circumstances surrounding the conception of the child born to that 16-year-old girl. That act could have been tragic, too, but until I learn otherwise I will refuse to think of it that way. I want to believe that the young girl met a boy, her first love, someone who would finally hold her close and make her believe that good times lay ahead of them. Maybe that's wishful thinking. If not my aunt, though, then certainly there were others among the "charges" in that convent whose stories began with love and ended in loss and shame because of the mores of the time. So many young women. So many different stories.
Life can be cruel sometimes.
And what of the boy, the father of that baby? When a certain old song shuffled up on my iTunes list this morning, I thought for the first time about his role in this story. Except for the fact that my aunt's name was definitely not Joanne, the song made me imagine that boy as he might have been in later years, grown well into manhood and maturity, remembering that young girl and wondering whatever happened to her.
The song is "Joanne" by Michael Nesmith and the First National Band.
Thanks to Somewheremaybe for posting the song and its lyrics on YouTube.