Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Testing, testing, 1, 2

Tonight I feel like the performer who arrives late and steps onto the stage after the show's over, the lights have been dimmed, and everybody's gone home. I'm standing here alone, squinting my eyes to see all the way to the cheap seats. Is there anybody out there?

In the month since I last posted, I've been engaged in an internal struggle, the origin of which I couldn't readily identify at first. Introvert that I am, I had to circle my emotional wagons and mull everything over by a slow-burning mental campfire until I could sort out specifically what was bothering me and figure out what to do about it. It isn't anything I can talk about yet, but I did reach a decision.

My second husband (the good one), told me early in our marriage that his father once told him to remember the following words of wisdom: "Over 35, do; under 35, don't." As much as I distrust generalities, this advice has proved through the years to be reliable. I'm way over 35, and today I did it. Not all the way yet, but at least I set things in motion.

While I was deeply ensconced in the "should-I-or-shouldn't-I" mode, a fellow blogger unwittingly gave me a little nudge. That would be Patsy, who posted this cartoon. Thanks, Patsy, I needed that.

I already feel a hundred pounds lighter.

13 comments:

  1. Oh Velvet, You've been so missed!!! I'm just ecstatic to see a post!

    I have an inkling what this means and I'm sending good thoughts your way!

    Hugs to Butch and Kadi

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  2. OMG, I hope this doesn't mean you are going to get a ChimpanZzz as a pet!

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  3. I was so excited when I saw you had posted.....such is my dull life....

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  4. Hey, where'd my comment go? Sigh... Great to see you here. And any choice is a relief in the making, so, well done!

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  5. As a new reader who's been needing a fix...I'm so glad you're back....

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  6. I'm curious, very curious about this mysterious "do". My imagination is running wild. Will you join the circus? take a Caribbean cruise? open your own business? buy a new car? adopt another dog? cat? hamster? join a health club? go to college? redecorate the house? put in a swimming pool? sign up with Match.com? move to California next door to Holly? get fake fingernails? put all your books in alphabetical order? switch coffee brands? The possibilities are endless, and I will be hovering to find out!

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  7. You've been missed!!!
    I always say life's too short and the older you get, the short it is.

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  8. Judging from the cartoon, you've wandered off to live life a little. Good for you! I hope you come back though, I'm curious to hear about your adventures.

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  9. Hoping you are well, and missing your blog posts!

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  10. Please come back! I miss your posts! I need a Butch and Kadi fix!!!!!!
    (in best whiny voice) Its been foreverrrrrr!!!!

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  11. Velvet, I posted to your blind dog site just now, and the noticed that you haven't been there since November. Now, I see that you haven't been here in a while either. Anyway, I came back to suggest that you list "blind dogs" in your interest area in your profile area. People could click on it and find your site.

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  12. I just came here for the first time today. I love your posts, you write beautifully and I am interested in reading more. Please keep posting!

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  13. How about letting us finally know what's up with you?!? I know from Alison's blog that you are alive and even well, pups too, so what's up?!? Inquiring minds want to know! Carmon

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